Orthostatic hypotension

Orthostatic hypotension (also known as postural hypotension^[1], and, colloquially, as head rush or a dizzy spell) is a form of hypotension in which there is a sudden (less than 3 minutes) fall in blood pressure, typically greater than 20/10 mm Hg,^[2] that occurs when a person assumes a standing position, usually after a prolonged period of rest.

The incidence increases with age.^[3]

Symptoms

Symptoms, which generally occur after sudden standing, include dizziness, lightheadedness, headache, blurred or dimmed vision (possibly to the point of momentary blindness), generalized (or extremity) numbness/tingling and fainting, coat hanger pain (pain centered in the neck and shoulders), and in rare, extreme cases, vasovagal syncope. They are consequences of insufficient blood pressure and cerebral perfusion (blood supply).

uh oh.....I'm in trouble....

is home where the heart is? ch.2

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A couple of days before I went to the city where i was born, Bandung, we got hit by a news that my uncle (my dad's younger sister's husband=brother in law) passed away...from sickness. The news he was sick wasnt new to us, at least for a few years. He was an ex military doctor and surgeon. My dad and his younger brother went to bandund that day, I couldnt go because it was too sudden and I hadn't prepare as when I was told, i had just woken up...

So I went to Bandung for the first time in 6 years, I met up with my granmothers for the first time. I stayed with my faternal granmother for the first night, it was kinda hard for us to communicate with her because of her hearing. She lives with one of her grandaughter and which during the morning she'd go to school and comeback later in the afternoon, so my grandmother would spend most of the day by herself, well she does have caretakers, but yeah...my faternal grandfather is long gone, i cant even remember when was the last time i saw him. Must've been ages ago? In her house, we saw lots of pictures...back when the family as close we ever been. When I told her i'd be staying at my other gran's place and leaving day after...she disappointed to only see us for a little while after a long absence.

The next night, I stayed at my maternal grandmother's place. The house is now waaaaay different than before. She doesnt live by herself, because my aunt and her son lives there and so is one of my uncle. She also provides a place for a guy that was a victim to the 'mini tsunami' not long ago. It was kinda sad though, first I rang them up earlier on the day, my aunt didnt recognise me until i said i was my mum's son...then when i walked in, my gran didnt recognise me too. After she realised...she had tears in her eyes...i kinda understand, only a year ago, a couple of days before i graduated from high school, a couple of night before presentation evening as i had invited my mum to come along, my grandfather passed away, I havent seen him since the last time i saw him 6 years earlier. After i told her the same thing, she kinda had the same reaction too about me leaving bandung and indo again...

So hey, I met up with Mr. Adriano while i was in bandung, looking healthy and sleek as always ;]. Met up with a couple of his friends, they're good people and we had dinner. Texted Quang, and he hasnt save Will's number and dont know who i was, wtf...anywayz. My sundanese is really bad, i needed to refresh.

I came back to Jakarta, knowing I will miss Bandung, cihampelas [which has gone through a lot of changes...] and knowing that I didnt get to go around much...i still want the foooooooodddd!

A day after I came back, the posse came around again and chilled, played uno and all that. After they went home, i had nasi goreng and felt this headache going on in my head, big massive headache on all of the sudden. The next day, i thought i had the flu, until i lost appetite for food and vommitted a few times. I had to cancel our plan to go convoying on scooters to a mall on the sunday as the night before i was ommitted to the hospital and had blood sample taken which the result came out as that virus. This is when i thought my faith to God is being tested, before i went to the hospital, i was paranoid, i thought the headache was brain tumour, i thought the fever was typhoid fever, i thought my days were over. Yet, i managed to live on, abit longer, hopefully.
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is home where the heart is?

So here I am back in Melbourne...
I must say though, I did say I didnt quite like it there at first, I kinda gotten used to it, so much that I started to think about moving back there...

It's just that living is so much easier compare to Melbourne, things are cheap, food are easy to get, hell man they have mcdonalds delivery! 24hour!!!!! and KFC too!!! FAR OUT!

Traffic is another thing though, although it's such a frustrating thing, short distance can take you hours on the street. I swear, in Melbourne trips takes longer because of the distance, in Jakarta, trips takes longer because of the traffic jam usually on rush hour and weekends.

Jakarta might not have the convenience of train and trams, but everything is so localised, food, shops, malls all in reach. Even friends, its so much easier to organise a gathering at my house because they all live nearby and have scooters to travel with.

At some point, I hated being there, at night, i got so bored because i had nothing to do beside watch soapies on tv (sinetron), and barely any internet, which i actually spend hours in uploading all the photos off my phone...which failed a few times after i waited for that long hours...thats because i only had dial up connection (maybe shittier than dial up...) so i just spent the nights away playing FM...

One thing I notice about soccer in Indonesia is that theyre such fanatics. English, Italian, Spanish, even Dutch and German leagues are covered, way more than in Australia who focuses more on English and Domestic A league, that too, live matches only covered mostly by pay tv Foxtel. Unlike that, I found about 14 free network tv and about 5 covers soccer matches. Although, soccer in Indonesia tend to focus more on the top 4, from the leagues mentioned, a little about outside top 4 unless the top 4 teams played a match against them (even more if the top 4 lost...) I found that abit unfair...

Security is also a negative too, these days you always have to have your vehicle registration with you. Security officers checks your car everytime you take the parking ticket to enter malls. Before you enter the mall they also make you go through metal detector. Kinda scary too huh?

But as I said, its so easy to make networks and connections. My dad, as far as i concern, has 100 times more connections than in australia. Anything he need, just a phone call away, where, who and how much most of the times. Things that are not illegal of course...like electronic stuff, phones, stereo, appliances...

One more setback is when I caught a virus...dont worry, I used Norton anti virus, no duh. I did, first it was normal then i had nausea and massive headache on all of the sudden...next day i know i was sick and i had fever. then followed by vomitting, i thought maybe i had another food poisoning. So that night i was taken to the hospital and took a blood sample. I went home while my dad waited for the result. He came home and brought the news, virus, the doctor (or physician) said, funny that I'm 20 years old and not immune to this virus, my father then said well he's ben living in australia for the last 6-7 years. So everyone in indonesia pretty much already immune to this virus, except me. Here i thought, I've been away too long, long enough to lose to my own nature.

You dont feel it until you lost it, in this case, when you have a great distance and time seperating you...All this time, I forgot where I came from, no one could change it, not even me, I havent taken australian citizenship yet, now i'm kinda thinking maybe I shouldnt. What goes up must come down, I probably should go back to jakarta and get a job there. It feels like such a burden seeing my dad working so hard for living though its nearing his retirement time. He did say its much easier to live in Jakarta compare to here, cost wise...before, i would disagree with him, but this time, I cant say i still disagree with him.

I've learnt alot, especially about faith, i've lost my way of life. Religion is so strong in Indonesia, i must say, i have to pick islam up again. Its not because of social or peer pressure or anything, its just for spiritual and mental serenity and tranquility, and most of all, for God...theres plenty of good reason actually, like restricting self from temptations.

there's plenty to write about, i'll continue later, i gotta book my timetable nowz.

lens

so here i am in jakarta
surprisingly it isnt as hot as i thought it would be, but still, pretty humid during the day (and night)
but it rains alot huh, i see floods everywhere on the news.

i can tell i wont last long here, because, man traffic is such a state here, plus, reckless drivers everywhere, they dont drive on lanes, blurry traffic markers too rarrl, scooters everywhere, really frustrating and scary at the same time when you drive a car. plus, i have no idea about getting to places using bus way and other public transport.

internet is shit house,, i'm using dial up that dc every..2 seconds, and slow as a granny on another granny. i'm getting things done bit by bit though on another note.

just last night my friends all gather here in my crib, about 15 of them, so many i thought of charging them parking fee for their scooters but i cant do that can i?, and we had food and lots of photos sesh nyahahah ah wellz i missed so much, as much as i miss aussie life now... i wanna go back quick. nak pengsan awak.

ah wellz, my friends are organising more hanging out sesh this week and next week. then i have to go to bandung and see will then hopefully back to aus no later than feb 7th. I really really really hope so....i gak betah lah disini nyo

until then...

melbourne-denpasar-jakarta-bandung-jakarta-denpasar-melbourne

dear fari, when packing up, please dont forget the following:
1. gifts
2. toothbrush
3. glasses
4. fudge
5. deod
6. perfume
7. belt
8. ipod +charger
9. phone +charger
10. wallet =.=" cash(exchange)
11. usb full of photos
12. nail clipper
13. book for the plane
14. sandals...
15. sunscreen =] hat too?
16. sunnies
17. accesories
18. singlets
19.pens (to fill out stuff on the plane/airport)
20.UNDIES! WHY DIDNT ANYONE SAY THAT

No love?

yep, i have a superlink to wikipedia page...who doesnt/??????

Tea

hmm...

i've actually decided on what i'll be doing in the future.
although i admit it still a bit blurry and unclear, but maybe i should start building up to it.
I want to go on adventures around the world and make documentaries...
inspired after seeing 'gone to save the planet' on nat geo channel.

i thought of that actually more to spending money than earning, but then finding sponsors and working for those companies say disc channel or nat geo or any independent network i might pull it off. In addition, the risk that i would gladly take, being killed by the force of nature which i would take anytime over manslaughter or illnesses especially food poisoning...ungh those were the dark days of my life...........

will i be like steve irwin? probably not, i'm interested more in landforms and geologies rather than faunas, plus the fact that i do have a secret phobia of snakes...

will i be involved in green peace? probably not, GP is way too political which i would rather avoid, although i feel i am obliged to do similar thing but i guess seeing is not always believing, you have to experience it with all your senses, in this case at this rate, we will all see the consequences.

why this sort of career? lets just say i hate theories, i hate essays, i hate writing and i ....er...i actually dont mind reading. but i always need to put my hands on things, i wouldnt think its tourette syndrome... o.O

i enjoyed practice more, ever since school, i quite enjoy working on the bench during science, wood tech, geo field trips, i feel i gain more knowledge and i learn more from those things rather than sitting and watching someone blabbering about. Even when i was a little, i enjoyed lego, man those were awesome, i could spend whole day and night, in out, weeks months playing with them. i also thought of becoming a wildlife control and a mechanic...maybe that's should be my day job.

Again i also feel becoming those dont really need tertiary education, but qualification is as important. i didnt actualy want to go to uni in the first place and rather to find a job as soon as i finish high school, and learn as a progress in those sort of career. My father insists on uni, i guess he might be right too, its the qualification that gets you 'up higher on the list'. That pretty much answered Ash's question not long ago, how do i have money when i dont work as much? My dad is responsible in funding my education, so everything is on his hands when it comes to uni - 3 years fee, train tickets, books etc. Other things, i dont spend my own money as much, i share clothes with my brother, like jackets, clothes and shoes, when i'm hungry i eat at home, as you know i dont spend much on phone credits. Plus....me and my bro are bargain hunters yo.

on another note,
i kinda miss my friends, the likes of sher sher, matty j, hank and frana, dave, chin, duy sam, etc.
yep, they're my new family now. I'd like to keep in contact with my old friends, i still see ash now and then, oh hey i found warcraft 3 dont buy it i let you borrow mine yao?

but i think i have moved on from my old friends, i have grown apart from theml, so far apart that i feel i have lost my place. we're at the point where i've no longer have the same interest as they are and the same for them. the world is big, we all cant stay in the same space together, we have to look in different ways for different things, and that just the way it's going to be. You too have to look for your own path and create new network. See it as a way to take your mind off this and make your own friends lah. let go of the past and move on, i've done it before and i dont mind doing it again.

speaking of which, i'm going 'home' for the first time in 7 years...or 6? well i forgot is the point.
I have recently just found my old old friends on facebook and man! they had reunion this year in october! GRARRLL!! 5 years too!! NAWWZZ!! but i found Tommy (his mum is my mum's high school friend) which i went to high school with and man i miss him my best buddy and Dwipa which i've known since grade schooler! GOD I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE THE OTHER GUYS TOO!! i cant wait!! 15th Jan WOOOO...!

which i also have planned to go to Bali and atleast get some vacation which i clearly need and havent had for....quite a long...long...long...time

and of course i'll visit bandung and check out my fams and might see Will (bb tkd).

I guess i shall wait and spoil myself with (more and more of ) Ace Combat until then.

CIAO!

ps: long blow hey? well its been a while
pps: when the christians are celebrating christmas tomorrow, i shall be playing football with my non christian friends.
ppps: no ppps.